夜空

Alones.

2010-02-05T11:22:00.002+08:00

4 / 5 of feb, Moodless.

nth to do.

yesterday performance till 930.

I slept on stage - WOOHOO!

None saw me.

Shadowed someone i happen to saw on the way home.

Slacked at somewhere, dunnoe where to go next.

Making sure that my next destination wasn't home.

Tried my best, didn't want to interrupt with other people's life.

Good enough if they accepted my existence.

I didn't expect anything from you, nor will I expect it.

Nice going, you changed hard.

Goodbye if you didn't recognise me anymore.

Yawns...

On a day when we are still powerless and young, you witness sadness that you didn't have to see.

Now you are spending your time holding in tears that do not needs to be held in...

We are not strong enough to keep on living on just completely truthful things.

We don't have to be strong, okay?

夜空: Today.

2010-01-26T20:00:00.003+08:00

26 January, Sunny.

Nth much to do, may not be updating this blog too often like daily.

Unless, nth to do.

Hahas.

I knew it had to be a mistake, after looking at you.

I'm sorry.

Yawns... Damn tired.

Luckily today can go school at 830 lo.

Or else CAN CRY!

Maybe play some games, watch shows or nth.

God damn boring.

Can anyone just find mi sth that is entertaining?

Short post, Waste not, want not.

Kae thkz Bai.

You said that if you ran, that you can do it. That far away voice that's calling to take your very radiant hand.

夜空: LOL.

2010-01-25T19:48:00.004+08:00

25 January, Windy but sunny. (Weird weather...Lets see if tonight there's a blue moon...)

Today's a long day at school.

School ended at 315.

Glad...tried my best to stay awake in school wor.

but hard what obstacles like the teacher, coz its boring.

LOL. i pon CO oso.

Coz got violin lessons ma.

Tomorrow i need gib parent letter to cher. i lazy write lo.

now plae com.

suddenly feel like playing FB.

yawns.

Boring.

Tomorrow dunnoe how to survive.

Good luck.

GG man no time for kids.

Byee.

Time goes by, the flow of time changes us, but things that we lost, things that we dream of...I'll take your hand and recall them. I'm always by your side...

夜空: Pure Sunday.

2010-01-24T17:46:00.007+08:00

24 January, Normal.

Went to Bishan in the morning.

Actually was planning to own my sister and JianHong in the afternoon.

We told them we play BB, then let them go first, meet them somewhere else.

Then we pangseh them go MacRitchie walk walk.

But end up no one want go, then sua lor, we go AMK or Bishan walk walk lo.

Ended up at Arcade with only Fu Ing, SY, Amos and MZ following, they rest dunnoe disappear till where.

Played for a while den go home with Jian Yuan.

Walk CWP, bought BB tea, went home.

LOL.

Go home le and found out that the two sisters haben reach home.

Den i use comp now lo. xD

Yawns... NTH to do.

No mood for hwks.

Sian.

Promise ppls muz finish up my chinese, which i dun tink can lo.

Den the rest i dunnoe la.

Try my best. Sian diao.

Thats all for todae.

Boring coz i never detail.

Those sad memories you gave me, was dissolved by my tears and disappears as sorrows.

夜空: LOL.

2010-01-23T14:51:00.003+08:00

23 January, Sunny.

Plain, miserable, tired, dull.

Went to school, see the rehearsal like kinda CMI lei.

Maybe okay ba.

Who noes.

Went to school at 845 this morning.

Damn bored.

Talked to "Mdm Ng".

Quite the interesting.

Watch her do the powerpoint for the 10th anniversary.

I dun really like the idea of the concert with acting and stuffs.

Kinda, feels... lame??

Nah, heck care ba.

Haish, kinda exhausted.

It ends here for now.

You’re not alone. When You’re Lost “Here", I am… “Forever” With Your Soul...I can make my way to you, if you believe in me.

夜空: Damned day.

2010-01-22T18:57:00.004+08:00

22 January, Rained in the morning.

Plain life. (Don't bother explaining how its like)

And, hey you out there.

If you are looking at my blog, I wan you to noe something.

I'm not the pro-est of the freaking percussion.

If i am, I wouldn't accept another one to be my teacher.

I (OBVIOUSLY) accepts the fact that there are other ppls much pro-er.

I am not proud.

From young, I didn't like performing.

I hate the feeling of like as if you are free labourer or you are entertainment...and you get nothing.

If each of my every sentence you have to take it so seriously and be so rude to me.

Sorry, you don't understand me.

I didn't join CO for performing.

GOD, what makes you think that the moment you join a performing art, you HAVE TO perform.

Can't I join for learning and having fun?

That was my purpose from the start you know?

I juz happen to play a bit more averagely and next...was condemned to perform.

Okayy, I do not oppose to performing in SFY, thats a competition, my friend.

You do get awards for that if you do well.

But I do not really like performance for like, CNY? Concerts and stuffs that all you get was nothing except, maybe experience?

Coz, its the audience who gets the entertainment.

I do not care for what you called, the enjoyment in performing.

But i do care for the enjoyment of playing with you guys.

Screw off if you don't understand.

Okay, now screw off the CO things.

Now, get this clear ppls.

I am what i am.

I've got a life, get it?

If you can't accept who i am, then, don't bother being my friend.

You cannot condemn me as a sinner when i mixes with sinners, coz, i didn't sin.

Believe it or not, I m not a joker.

My personality from the start was never a joker.

I joke when my friends around I feel that they are feeling plain or bored, or they emo.

Just wanted a change of atmosphere.

Now, they say i joker.

If i don't joke, they say i emo, or, chances are, they will emo again and i have to change the atmosphere to more lively.

If i joke, they condemn mi to being a joker.

And, tell you guys something.

When ppls say LOL, it doesn't means that they have to laugh.

In fact, i believe most dun laugh when they say LOL!

I dun, for your info.

Sometimes, to make them feel comfortable when talking to me, i gotta say "Hahas..."

Even when i'm down and no one, noes abt it.

I dunnoe how, thats all i can say.

Post ends at here.

Sorry if you feel negative or something after reading.

Didn't want you to think that i'm a bad guy. Hahas...

Coz, i'm not, and, do not try to be rude or condemn mi, saying that I'm like this de.

Coz, I'm not.

I just gotta sae what I feel like saying.

Screw off if you can't accept me.

I didn't ask you to be my friend.

You know who you are.

Thats all I wanna say.

Bye.

Cast magic on me who had forgotten even how to laugh,

You who changed everything with a single smile are my Fairy.

夜空: Updates of blog

2010-01-21T21:51:00.003+08:00

21 January, Weather all normal.

I'm gonna update my blog le, or least, try bax.

LOl. I noticed that at times i can't see platforms straight.

Gets bad headaches due to loud noises and i dunnoe why.

Whatever.

Nothing much to do.

Plain boring life; CCAs and crap, homeworks, using the computer do stuffs.

Yea, thats so lifeless, i know.

At times, i even do feel proud of myself that i was able to live 16 years of this plain boring life.

May be an accomplishment?

I dunnoe.

Started listening to English songs though J-pop still rocks.

Gotta end this short and sweet.

Goodbye.

When you cast your eyes down, as though sinking, the dry ground slurps up your tears...

夜空: Gave up

2010-01-02T19:21:00.003+08:00

Hey, this blog, i may not updating for a while. Maybe once in a while.

And, I wun be online for a while due to lack of internet resources but i will still be active in FB and stuffs.

I just gave up on ya since ur heart already belonged to someone else.

Maybe i may continue? I dun really noe.

Thats all. Goodbye.

Lost in the darkness, existence voided by you...

夜空: MIA

2009-11-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

6 of November though now is 7, Rainy but the sun shines.

7 of November, Darkness as its the night now.

Unable to see a thing except my computer.

Its been long since i last blogged.

All this while was plain Bridging Programme at school and CCAs.

Every weekday reach home at 5 - 6.

There's still one more week to suffer.

Wish to suffer in place of you.

Longing to see that smile of yours again - I will do whatever it takes to protect it.

夜空: Reposting of the last 2.

2009-11-01T09:51:00.003+08:00

1 of November, dull, bright but sad day.

I've got no time to post the last few daes.

Damn tired.

Life becomes so hectic.

Of yea, ty all for everything during the past few daes.

It was great, though there was crying in the night before the date turns 31/10.

Dun worry, because, that night, you gave me the best present ever.

I will remember it and, you will see.

You did great.

Your star shone most brightly in the night sky.

I use my falling star and wished that it will continue to be like this.

Do the sun really shines where I am around?

I hope so.

Maybe its time to let go le.

If heaven allows it, I promise you to hold on till the very end.

The outing was great though.

Thank you for keeping your best.

Thank you for the comics and cake, I owe you.

The next time, I would just let you go.

Though its a special dae, you dun have to put up with that much sufferings if you dun want to.

I would choose to give you up, if you would find happiness.

I'm kinda frustrated.

Is sadness such a convenient excuse to change your attitude towards others?

I wonder.

People would break often because of your "breaking".

Fine then...

Sian diao, gonna change my fon but the store didn't have the stock.

Must wait for them to order and collect it on Monday.

>.<

If stores didn't have the basic stock, why do they bother to open up for business huh?

Weird human thinking.

Yesterday wasn't the most enjoyable at all, though i didn't really expect it to be.
Life can't get worser or sadder unless...

So, there's nothing it get sad about currently.

I would end this post now though its a short one.

I wouldn't mention any other things le.

But, I am...real proud of you.

Hahas.

It feels weird without you by my side.

I can't seem to find the stars anymore.

夜空: chilled...

2009-10-29T16:00:00.004+08:00

29 of October, Rained but shined brightly.

Haish, kinda cooled down after last night.

Though I still feel that the pain, I not as confused as yesterdae.

I'm scared.

Real scared.

Was being forced to a corner.

Guess i need a break...

But, right now, I dun want to care.

I want to take things as they come.

Living dae by dae as if there's no tomorrow.

You are shivering, i noe.

I wun break down that fast.

Gotta break you out of that nest, and show you the light.

Okae, talking about todae.

SCHOOL!

Second last dae of school, though sadly, excluding the irony goddamned "bridging programme".

Wonder what is it?

To help make a bridge or something?

Nah, its something like long hours tuition.

Qns: What comes after that? Slacking at home?

NO! IT Club... Yay! No nid go home liao lor. ==

Haish, damn tired todae.

Spent the school hours sleeping, watch movies and playing cards. [ **When I say cards, I'm referring to "Poker" cards ]

All those relief teachers dun give a shit about what we are doing.

Even if they do, they catch no balls as we are pros at acting.

Got ppls help keep look out de wor.

LOL.

Seems to be losing that smile, everything too.

As they were playing winner in, last 2 losers out.

It was fun, as...I kept winning of COURSE!

After school got IT meeting.

I went home halfway through though, wasn't feeling too good.

Now at home slacking, coz i dun deny i m real good at it.

I m still waiting.

Gotta end this post.

Hope tomorrow goes well.

Dun cry...

I will take your trembling hands together with me, and grow stronger by walking against those winds that come.

I noe you will...I trust you...

夜空: Killing.

2009-10-28T20:15:00.011+08:00

Second post of the dae.

Finally, my darkest side is forcing out of mi again.

Since years when i last felt that way.

Now, there's someone who made my blood boil, reaching the limit soon.

I swear, i wun hesitate to remove my 杀戒 n KILL HIM the next time i meet him face to face.

Been years after my brother had been bullied so badly, i hide knifes under that smile.

Of coZ, after destroying that bastard.

Last warning to those who goes too far to hurts the people i cherish in anyway...

Remember that.

Seriously raging now.

I can't type properly.

DAMN fked.

Struggling hard to control that god damned monster in mi.

AARAARRRRGGGG...

I....wun..hesitate...to..kill...him.

Damn breathless.

i can'T type properly now.

wan cry oso cannot cry out.

I wun laugh anymore.

My brothers are separated.

I can't even fking protect the ones i cherished so much.

I M LOSING EVERYTING I ONCE HAD. ~~T.T~~

I CANOT TINK I CANOT TINK I CANNOT TINK!

SHUDDAP!!!

AAAAARHRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!

夜空: Late post

2009-10-28T14:34:00.005+08:00

Hey, sorry guys.

I didn't post yesterdae's.

Yesterdae didn't feel that good though.

My headache came back.

Slacked in school during lessons since no one cares.

Went back home busy chatting and stuffs.

Slept at home from 530 to 11.

Woke up and was on the fon till 1+.

Went back to sleep again.

I hab got short term memory.

Can't remember more of yesterday le.

Okae, talking about todae.

28 of October, bright but rainy.

Went school as usual.

GOD, MY INTERNET BROWSER SUDDENLY CLOSED BY ITSELF N STOPPED WORKING.

Luckily there's auto saving of posts.

God knows what will happen to bloggers without them.

Continuing on...

Plae street soccer with my class jokers during pt, was ROFL most of the time.

Waited for time to pass during recess and the rest of the "free" periods.

Was playing around with the WiFi of Lionel's fon, Jet.

When i finally found wireless and was almost gonna use it for facebook n stuffs, but GOD...

Miss Chala came in with a timing way beyond GODLIKE.

Lionel grabbed back his fon and hid it under his PT shirt.

Miss Chala saw Lionel's quick actions but didn't see his fon.

However, with that epic judgement and experience from a teacher, she went for Lionel's fon in no time.

LOL, should hab bet with Lionel that he will surely get his fon back, because, he really did.

Miss Chala may have took pity of his new fon and found it like a SOAP, too inconvenient to carry around with her.

She didn't even lasted 20mins before returning the epic device.

Thats enough info for school.

Yawns...

Headache came back now.

Spinning like nobody business.

LOL.

Later gonna go for MT tuition at 4.

Sure is usual - Mahjong's after lessons.

Though, i really would prefer staying home for rest.

Still wondering what fon should i get.

Better come to a GOOD decision by Friday.

Thats about that.

This post should last till at least, tomorrow?

Yea, tomorrow.

Bye.

Your smile was cute though, so as your cries...

Holding back the tears, Light that is more beautiful than anything else is gathering.

Moving towards the clouds, the rainbow forms after the rain...

Woke up crying, after dreaming of you, waving mi goodbye.

夜空: Boring....

2009-10-26T17:54:00.006+08:00

26 of October, sunny and bright all long.

Haish.

All day long at school.

Must chiong finish this post in 5 mins.

No lessons except for POA, but only for one period.

Interesting part about todae is during the MT lessons.

The school ANCIENT computers are still lagging as normal. ( I hope the archaeologists come and experiment with it.

Hope HT's suggestion works...to replace the school failures' coms.

Since the computers are failing so hard, we can't access to much of the favorite websites like Ebuddy.com

We somehow began tweeting, after the influence of HT and Lenice.

After that, i created a wireless@SG account at the school computer, so its not an artifact yet, but can be counted as one.

Gonna get a new fon, wondering what fon will i get.

The W705? or something like that since i dun really need a smart or touch fon.

Juz needed WIFI!! WOOS.

Internet access makes everything possible. - HT

Went to HouTian's house after school.

We were chionging JamLegend.

Obviously, i was the weakest since i didn't really practice.

Just played for the fun of it.

Hahas.

After that went for violin lesson.

Den down here blog lor.

Sian...

Wonder what will happen tomorrow.

Living everyday now as if theres no tomorrow.

Who cares about it?

I live my own life and you live yours.

Good luck to you then.

Yawns.

In this rusted era like this, i will be praying from here, that all the things tormenting you would come to an end...

To you... If you are willing, i would take you to a faraway place and we will never return...

夜空: A game,

2009-10-25T10:34:00.002+08:00

25 of October, bright but wet weather.

Last night, i learnt that a simple game of chinese chess tells so much about one's character.

Let mi elaborate.

Yesterdae, i played the game with my elder sister as i was bored.

She lost the first round.

The second round, we played till i was left with 2 soldiers and she still had 2 cannons and horses.

However, one thing that shocked mi is that she regretted her last move when i was doing my finishing move to allow the soldiers corner her king, and she epic-ly "回步" like nobody's business.

She conveniently excused herself, saying that "oh, i m no Jun zi - gentleman in MT"

This clearly shows how the hateful humane nature works.

They would lower their dignity just for that victory.

I just lost a bit of pride, thats all.

Didn't expected her to be this "cheap".

Okae, talking about todae.

Actually, i was suppose to go out wandering.

But i stayed home to rest as my mum suggested.

Regretted staying home.

Dad made us did all the housework, while he slacked and slept in the room.

All he did was, to command us to do work.

I was pretty amazed that he can still promise my mum who was out that he would do the household chores and wouldn't made her worry.

Disgusted.

But i kinda cheered up after the grumble.

Switched on my computer and watched the latest movie of "Detective Conan" -The Raven Chaser.

You can find the movie in Youtube easily.

I would give WARNING to those who haven watched it.

THE TEXT BELOW MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS.

YOUR CHOICE TO READ IT OR NOT.

Quite a good movie, i would rate it 5 stars.

But what was a bit disappointing is that its doesn't include "Conan" revealing his true identity - Kudou Shinichi to his girlfriend "Ran".

The plot may be considered as not as exciting as seen in the trailer.

Some parts of the opening scenes, is hard to understand unless you really had watched the anime.

I wouldn't elaborate further on the movie.

Any further thoughts about the movie you violently want to know, go watch it yourself.

Gotta catch One Piece right now.

Haish.

I wouldn't like to waste my sunday on animes, but why not if it is much more entertaining.

Ending this post here.

May give a shorter post if i have the time later.

The wound inside my tearing heart, is filled with memories that overflow in the sky and melt my frozen emotions.

夜空: Boring sat...

2009-10-24T19:03:00.001+08:00

24 of october, sunny. Plain sunny.

So, after the weather, what happened?

Kena wake up call by an idiot.

Went to Evergreen Primary School.

Saw some friends there, slacked and went JJ's house.

Peii JL go eat and spent time looking for DVD-RW 4GB.

Coz they want burn PS2 games ma.

WOW, didn't know that...

Went home feeling damn exhausted at around 6.

Quite boring huh. xD

Haish.

This post maybe shorter than normal.

Coz todae like nothing happen.

Sian, These daes, can be described by:

On Com - Facebook, Blog, MSN and going out, wandering nia.

Nothing better to do, oh, also, doing stupid quiz on Facebook too.

Those painful daes are over.

Why are you still waiting for me? I ignored you.

I dun care le, even now.

Sorry.

Gotta end this post.

To my mei, dun feel so emo le.

Haish.

Wondering how to bring you back...

And then the little boy falls asleep, among the flames in the ash shining...

First one, then two...

I'm still waiting for you...

夜空: Survived.

2009-10-23T20:04:00.000+08:00

23 of October, bright, rainy.

Todae's kinda tiring.

Now temp like so random, raise and fall like nobody's business.

Finally, finale comes, I got mad at HT.

I oso got feelings wan leh.

I not what you sae out to be "perfect human" you noe?

Though i dun not cry it out, I tears.

Sorry la, brother.

I not understanding enough.

But i oso got gu qi de.

Just tell mi, and i will go.

DUN BLOODY LIE TO MI!

Wondered how it felt when your best friend lies to you?

Its like betrayal you noe?

I will understand de ma.

Sorry.

Todae damn tired, slept in school during lessons all the time.

Slept past school hours.

Went home feeling tired.

Tell you something, even if "He" shows the one tiny bit of brotherhood for me, i would die for him.

No regrets.

I dun mind nor care whether he is using mi or not.

I choose my own path.

Change topic: School now.

Thank god i never got retained.

Hahas.

But my class got 4 kena wor.

I heng - Happy-go lucky bax.

Haish.

Todae at IT club quite okay.

We stopmotion like never so busy before.

OT den reached home at 630.

Done the backdrop, almost finished painting.

LOL.

Deadline is 20+ November wor.

Head damn dizzy.

Dun talk le.

Maybe tomorrow bax.

Losing sight of those things we could see now, we drown in the sea of memories, but why?

夜空: Next post...

2009-10-22T19:36:00.000+08:00

Continuing on the epic adventures from before...

Went for IT meeting at 3, they were talking abt the Holidae camp stuffs.

Went home at 420, chiong shower again and rushed out for MT tuition.

Sad ting is, when i reached, they finishing on the papers.

Lucky teacher sae no count, den i no need pay.

Hahas...

Stayed there as they were playing mahjong.

LOL.

I self made pwned the first round.

Lady luck shining brightly.

But second round i lose den i go le.

So sad, but kinda fun.

Todae kinda disappointing.

Haish, rather not sae it.

Wun sleep so early tonight de, though kinda tired todae.

LOL.

Oh ya, not bad, todae got a good laugh, but pray hard tomorrow wun die.

Hahas.

I think thats about that for todae, anything i will edit the posts.

With the wings of engraving life, I'm longing for the next world in which i'll be reborn...

Good luck for tomorrow...

夜空: Crapping out a post

2009-10-22T14:29:00.001+08:00

22 of October. Bright, dark and rainy.

I slept late last night at around 2am.

Head spinning like mad.

Woke up late at 645 this morning and was glad that my life was still going on.

I went for a quick cold shower and rushed to school.

Last night almost fall out with HT.

But tell ya, its kinda frustrating to have a brother you trust so much, doubting you on your loyalty.

I would rather give up BGR just for not ruining our relationship.

I dun really care whether or not, you still trust people.

Sorry if i wronged you, coz we are on the sms, n i catch no balls of your tone.

Almost reached my limitations and lose my cool. Yawns.

Hahas...

Lucky you still can tell mi that you wun give mi up for a gal you know 2 years.

I m still glad though, and i believe the trust is still there.

Now, what the heck happened todae?

The same old boring life which not ordinary humans can take, occurred in mi.

Went school feeling damn crappy and slept in class throughout those free English and POA periods.

Kinda worried about retaining, Miss Chala warned the class that there are 5 retains in my class.

Said that one is confirm case liao, the rest nothing to say.

But one thing i liked about Mr Su WeiLun, that guy seems more willing to fight for the retains, rather than Miss Chala.

No Comments though.

Hope I wouldn't be one of the 4 retains.

Would just jump down as the sunsets.

Believe mi when i say i would, that i really would.

Yawns...

Went to 883 for lunch with Phil.

GTG soon for IT meeting now at 3.

LOL. Phil called. CHi.

So then, later i will post another one.

Maybe a shorter one...

The marks of your tears and scars are beautiful, because they made you what you are today.

To, JE.

夜空: Revival.

2009-10-21T13:23:00.000+08:00

Hey dudes out there.
Some kids requested for my revival of this dumb blog and i just did it.
Salutes to that idiot that said that i was lazy to update blogs.
Haish.
Spent 2 hrs looking for the skin and configuring and editing it.
There's so much things to edit.
I will update the blog weekly and if i got time, at the very least, to cure my boredom.
This few daes weren't that great.
Life's kinda boring coz even now, i m stil doing those stupid quizzes on facebook.
Though there is something called "Anime" which gives a bit of entertainment, time passed and the show would end.
Damn... I can't even bring back someone i cherished so much.
Damn useless. Haish.
Weather not godly, feel faint.
Let hope it rains.
The belief in life i found, were lost in just a matter of time.
Gave in to the darkness, is there still faith in relationships?
I found out that humans aren't that great after all, though kind by nature, they gives in to the selfishness and greed in them.
I oso found out that the "good" are not the good n "bad" are not that bad too.
Hard to understand huh.
Hahas.
"Just give up and accept it already!" "Never!"
Its human nature, the selfishness, to betray, backstab. I dun deny. But i wun accept it as it is.

The nightsky is drawn with a story connected by stars, an illusion your heart still yearns for.

P.S I m falling sick soon. WOOTz!!