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Friday, February 5, 2010;11:22 AM Y
4 / 5 of feb, Moodless.
nth to do.
yesterday performance till 930.
I slept on stage - WOOHOO!
None saw me.
Shadowed someone i happen to saw on the way home.
Slacked at somewhere, dunnoe where to go next.
Making sure that my next destination wasn't home.
Tried my best, didn't want to interrupt with other people's life.
Good enough if they accepted my existence.
I didn't expect anything from you, nor will I expect it.
Nice going, you changed hard.
Goodbye if you didn't recognise me anymore.
Yawns...
On a day when we are still powerless and young, you witness sadness that you didn't have to see.
Now you are spending your time holding in tears that do not needs to be held in...
We are not strong enough to keep on living on just completely truthful things.
We don't have to be strong, okay?
Tuesday, January 26, 2010;8:00 PM Y
26 January, Sunny.
Nth much to do, may not be updating this blog too often like daily.
Unless, nth to do.
Hahas.
I knew it had to be a mistake, after looking at you.
I'm sorry.
Yawns... Damn tired.
Luckily today can go school at 830 lo.
Or else CAN CRY!
Maybe play some games, watch shows or nth.
God damn boring.
Can anyone just find mi sth that is entertaining?
Short post, Waste not, want not.
Kae thkz Bai.
You said that if you ran, that you can do it. That far away voice that's calling to take your very radiant hand.
Monday, January 25, 2010;7:48 PM Y
25 January, Windy but sunny. (Weird weather...Lets see if tonight there's a blue moon...)
Today's a long day at school.
School ended at 315.
Glad...tried my best to stay awake in school wor.
but hard what obstacles like the teacher, coz its boring.
LOL. i pon CO oso.
Coz got violin lessons ma.
Tomorrow i need gib parent letter to cher. i lazy write lo.
x(
now plae com.
suddenly feel like playing FB.
yawns.
Boring.
Tomorrow dunnoe how to survive.
Good luck.
GG man no time for kids.
Byee.
Time goes by, the flow of time changes us, but things that we lost, things that we dream of...I'll take your hand and recall them. I'm always by your side...
Sunday, January 24, 2010;5:46 PM Y
24 January, Normal.
Went to Bishan in the morning.
Actually was planning to own my sister and JianHong in the afternoon.
We told them we play BB, then let them go first, meet them somewhere else.
Then we pangseh them go MacRitchie walk walk.
But end up no one want go, then sua lor, we go AMK or Bishan walk walk lo.
Ended up at Arcade with only Fu Ing, SY, Amos and MZ following, they rest dunnoe disappear till where.
Played for a while den go home with Jian Yuan.
Walk CWP, bought BB tea, went home.
LOL.
Go home le and found out that the two sisters haben reach home.
Den i use comp now lo. xD
Yawns... NTH to do.
No mood for hwks.
Sian.
Promise ppls muz finish up my chinese, which i dun tink can lo.
Den the rest i dunnoe la.
Try my best. Sian diao.
Thats all for todae.
Boring coz i never detail.
Those sad memories you gave me, was dissolved by my tears and disappears as sorrows.
Saturday, January 23, 2010;2:51 PM Y
23 January, Sunny.
Plain, miserable, tired, dull.
Went to school, see the rehearsal like kinda CMI lei.
Maybe okay ba.
Who noes.
Went to school at 845 this morning.
Damn bored.
Talked to "Mdm Ng".
Quite the interesting.
Watch her do the powerpoint for the 10th anniversary.
I dun really like the idea of the concert with acting and stuffs.
Kinda, feels... lame??
Nah, heck care ba.
Haish, kinda exhausted.
It ends here for now.
You’re not alone. When You’re Lost “Here", I am… “Forever” With Your Soul...I can make my way to you, if you believe in me.
Friday, January 22, 2010;6:57 PM Y
22 January, Rained in the morning.
Plain life. (Don't bother explaining how its like)
And, hey you out there.
If you are looking at my blog, I wan you to noe something.
I'm not the pro-est of the freaking percussion.
If i am, I wouldn't accept another one to be my teacher.
I (OBVIOUSLY) accepts the fact that there are other ppls much pro-er.
I am not proud.
From young, I didn't like performing.
I hate the feeling of like as if you are free labourer or you are entertainment...and you get nothing.
If each of my every sentence you have to take it so seriously and be so rude to me.
Sorry, you don't understand me.
I didn't join CO for performing.
GOD, what makes you think that the moment you join a performing art, you HAVE TO perform.
Can't I join for learning and having fun?
That was my purpose from the start you know?
I juz happen to play a bit more averagely and next...was condemned to perform.
Okayy, I do not oppose to performing in SFY, thats a competition, my friend.
You do get awards for that if you do well.
But I do not really like performance for like, CNY? Concerts and stuffs that all you get was nothing except, maybe experience?
Coz, its the audience who gets the entertainment.
I do not care for what you called, the enjoyment in performing.
But i do care for the enjoyment of playing with you guys.
Screw off if you don't understand.
Okay, now screw off the CO things.
Now, get this clear ppls.
I am what i am.
I've got a life, get it?
If you can't accept who i am, then, don't bother being my friend.
You cannot condemn me as a sinner when i mixes with sinners, coz, i didn't sin.
Believe it or not, I m not a joker.
My personality from the start was never a joker.
I joke when my friends around I feel that they are feeling plain or bored, or they emo.
Just wanted a change of atmosphere.
Now, they say i joker.
If i don't joke, they say i emo, or, chances are, they will emo again and i have to change the atmosphere to more lively.
If i joke, they condemn mi to being a joker.
And, tell you guys something.
When ppls say LOL, it doesn't means that they have to laugh.
In fact, i believe most dun laugh when they say LOL!
I dun, for your info.
Sometimes, to make them feel comfortable when talking to me, i gotta say "Hahas..."
Even when i'm down and no one, noes abt it.
I dunnoe how, thats all i can say.
Post ends at here.
Sorry if you feel negative or something after reading.
Didn't want you to think that i'm a bad guy. Hahas...
Coz, i'm not, and, do not try to be rude or condemn mi, saying that I'm like this de.
Coz, I'm not.
I just gotta sae what I feel like saying.
Screw off if you can't accept me.
I didn't ask you to be my friend.
You know who you are.
Thats all I wanna say.
Bye.
Cast magic on me who had forgotten even how to laugh,
You who changed everything with a single smile are my Fairy.
Thursday, January 21, 2010;9:51 PM Y
21 January, Weather all normal.
I'm gonna update my blog le, or least, try bax.
LOl. I noticed that at times i can't see platforms straight.
Gets bad headaches due to loud noises and i dunnoe why.
Whatever.
Nothing much to do.
Plain boring life; CCAs and crap, homeworks, using the computer do stuffs.
Yea, thats so lifeless, i know.
At times, i even do feel proud of myself that i was able to live 16 years of this plain boring life.
May be an accomplishment?
I dunnoe.
Started listening to English songs though J-pop still rocks.
Gotta end this short and sweet.
Goodbye.
When you cast your eyes down, as though sinking, the dry ground slurps up your tears...
