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Thursday, October 29, 2009;4:00 PM Y
29 of October, Rained but shined brightly.
Haish, kinda cooled down after last night.
Though I still feel that the pain, I not as confused as yesterdae.
I'm scared.
Real scared.
Was being forced to a corner.
Guess i need a break...
But, right now, I dun want to care.
I want to take things as they come.
Living dae by dae as if there's no tomorrow.
You are shivering, i noe.
I wun break down that fast.
Gotta break you out of that nest, and show you the light.
Okae, talking about todae.
SCHOOL!
Second last dae of school, though sadly, excluding the irony goddamned "bridging programme".
Wonder what is it?
To help make a bridge or something?
Nah, its something like long hours tuition.
Qns: What comes after that? Slacking at home?
NO! IT Club... Yay! No nid go home liao lor. ==
Haish, damn tired todae.
Spent the school hours sleeping, watch movies and playing cards. [ **When I say cards, I'm referring to "Poker" cards ]
All those relief teachers dun give a shit about what we are doing.
Even if they do, they catch no balls as we are pros at acting.
Got ppls help keep look out de wor.
LOL.
Seems to be losing that smile, everything too.
As they were playing winner in, last 2 losers out.
It was fun, as...I kept winning of COURSE!
After school got IT meeting.
I went home halfway through though, wasn't feeling too good.
Now at home slacking, coz i dun deny i m real good at it.
I m still waiting.
Gotta end this post.
Hope tomorrow goes well.
Dun cry...
I will take your trembling hands together with me, and grow stronger by walking against those winds that come.
I noe you will...I trust you...
Wednesday, October 28, 2009;8:15 PM Y
Second post of the dae.
Finally, my darkest side is forcing out of mi again.
Since years when i last felt that way.
Now, there's someone who made my blood boil, reaching the limit soon.
I swear, i wun hesitate to remove my 杀戒 n KILL HIM the next time i meet him face to face.
Been years after my brother had been bullied so badly, i hide knifes under that smile.
Of coZ, after destroying that bastard.
Last warning to those who goes too far to hurts the people i cherish in anyway...
Remember that.
Seriously raging now.
I can't type properly.
DAMN fked.
Struggling hard to control that god damned monster in mi.
AARAARRRRGGGG...
I....wun..hesitate...to..kill...him.
Damn breathless.
i can'T type properly now.
wan cry oso cannot cry out.
I wun laugh anymore.
My brothers are separated.
I can't even fking protect the ones i cherished so much.
I M LOSING EVERYTING I ONCE HAD. ~~T.T~~
I CANOT TINK I CANOT TINK I CANNOT TINK!
SHUDDAP!!!
AAAAARHRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!
Hey, sorry guys.
I didn't post yesterdae's.
Yesterdae didn't feel that good though.
My headache came back.
Slacked in school during lessons since no one cares.
Went back home busy chatting and stuffs.
Slept at home from 530 to 11.
Woke up and was on the fon till 1+.
Went back to sleep again.
I hab got short term memory.
Can't remember more of yesterday le.
Okae, talking about todae.
28 of October, bright but rainy.
Went school as usual.
GOD, MY INTERNET BROWSER SUDDENLY CLOSED BY ITSELF N STOPPED WORKING.
Luckily there's auto saving of posts.
God knows what will happen to bloggers without them.
Continuing on...
Plae street soccer with my class jokers during pt, was ROFL most of the time.
Waited for time to pass during recess and the rest of the "free" periods.
Was playing around with the WiFi of Lionel's fon, Jet.
When i finally found wireless and was almost gonna use it for facebook n stuffs, but GOD...
Miss Chala came in with a timing way beyond GODLIKE.
Lionel grabbed back his fon and hid it under his PT shirt.
Miss Chala saw Lionel's quick actions but didn't see his fon.
However, with that epic judgement and experience from a teacher, she went for Lionel's fon in no time.
LOL, should hab bet with Lionel that he will surely get his fon back, because, he really did.
Miss Chala may have took pity of his new fon and found it like a SOAP, too inconvenient to carry around with her.
She didn't even lasted 20mins before returning the epic device.
Thats enough info for school.
Yawns...
Headache came back now.
Spinning like nobody business.
LOL.
Later gonna go for MT tuition at 4.
Sure is usual - Mahjong's after lessons.
Though, i really would prefer staying home for rest.
Still wondering what fon should i get.
Better come to a GOOD decision by Friday.
Thats about that.
This post should last till at least, tomorrow?
Yea, tomorrow.
Bye.
Your smile was cute though, so as your cries...
Holding back the tears, Light that is more beautiful than anything else is gathering.
Moving towards the clouds, the rainbow forms after the rain...
Woke up crying, after dreaming of you, waving mi goodbye.
Monday, October 26, 2009;5:54 PM Y
26 of October, sunny and bright all long.
Haish.
All day long at school.
Must chiong finish this post in 5 mins.
No lessons except for POA, but only for one period.
Interesting part about todae is during the MT lessons.
The school ANCIENT computers are still lagging as normal. ( I hope the archaeologists come and experiment with it.
Hope HT's suggestion works...to replace the school failures' coms.
Since the computers are failing so hard, we can't access to much of the favorite websites like Ebuddy.com
We somehow began tweeting, after the influence of HT and Lenice.
After that, i created a wireless@SG account at the school computer, so its not an artifact yet, but can be counted as one.
Gonna get a new fon, wondering what fon will i get.
The W705? or something like that since i dun really need a smart or touch fon.
Juz needed WIFI!! WOOS.
Internet access makes everything possible. - HT
Went to HouTian's house after school.
We were chionging JamLegend.
Obviously, i was the weakest since i didn't really practice.
Just played for the fun of it.
Hahas.
After that went for violin lesson.
Den down here blog lor.
Sian...
Wonder what will happen tomorrow.
Living everyday now as if theres no tomorrow.
Who cares about it?
I live my own life and you live yours.
Good luck to you then.
Yawns.
In this rusted era like this, i will be praying from here, that all the things tormenting you would come to an end...
To you... If you are willing, i would take you to a faraway place and we will never return...
Sunday, October 25, 2009;10:34 AM Y
25 of October, bright but wet weather.
Last night, i learnt that a simple game of chinese chess tells so much about one's character.
Let mi elaborate.
Yesterdae, i played the game with my elder sister as i was bored.
She lost the first round.
The second round, we played till i was left with 2 soldiers and she still had 2 cannons and horses.
However, one thing that shocked mi is that she regretted her last move when i was doing my finishing move to allow the soldiers corner her king, and she epic-ly "回步" like nobody's business.
She conveniently excused herself, saying that "oh, i m no Jun zi - gentleman in MT"
This clearly shows how the hateful humane nature works.
They would lower their dignity just for that victory.
I just lost a bit of pride, thats all.
Didn't expected her to be this "cheap".
Okae, talking about todae.
Actually, i was suppose to go out wandering.
But i stayed home to rest as my mum suggested.
Regretted staying home.
Dad made us did all the housework, while he slacked and slept in the room.
All he did was, to command us to do work.
I was pretty amazed that he can still promise my mum who was out that he would do the household chores and wouldn't made her worry.
Disgusted.
But i kinda cheered up after the grumble.
Switched on my computer and watched the latest movie of "Detective Conan" -The Raven Chaser.
You can find the movie in Youtube easily.
I would give WARNING to those who haven watched it.
THE TEXT BELOW MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS.
YOUR CHOICE TO READ IT OR NOT.
Quite a good movie, i would rate it 5 stars.
But what was a bit disappointing is that its doesn't include "Conan" revealing his true identity - Kudou Shinichi to his girlfriend "Ran".
The plot may be considered as not as exciting as seen in the trailer.
Some parts of the opening scenes, is hard to understand unless you really had watched the anime.
I wouldn't elaborate further on the movie.
Any further thoughts about the movie you violently want to know, go watch it yourself.
Gotta catch One Piece right now.
Haish.
I wouldn't like to waste my sunday on animes, but why not if it is much more entertaining.
Ending this post here.
May give a shorter post if i have the time later.
The wound inside my tearing heart, is filled with memories that overflow in the sky and melt my frozen emotions.
Saturday, October 24, 2009;7:03 PM Y
24 of october, sunny. Plain sunny.
So, after the weather, what happened?
Kena wake up call by an idiot.
Went to Evergreen Primary School.
Saw some friends there, slacked and went JJ's house.
Peii JL go eat and spent time looking for DVD-RW 4GB.
Coz they want burn PS2 games ma.
WOW, didn't know that...
Went home feeling damn exhausted at around 6.
Quite boring huh. xD
Haish.
This post maybe shorter than normal.
Coz todae like nothing happen.
Sian, These daes, can be described by:
On Com - Facebook, Blog, MSN and going out, wandering nia.
Nothing better to do, oh, also, doing stupid quiz on Facebook too.
Those painful daes are over.
Why are you still waiting for me? I ignored you.
I dun care le, even now.
Sorry.
Gotta end this post.
To my mei, dun feel so emo le.
Haish.
Wondering how to bring you back...
And then the little boy falls asleep, among the flames in the ash shining...
First one, then two...
I'm still waiting for you...
Friday, October 23, 2009;8:04 PM Y
23 of October, bright, rainy.
Todae's kinda tiring.
Now temp like so random, raise and fall like nobody's business.
Finally, finale comes, I got mad at HT.
I oso got feelings wan leh.
I not what you sae out to be "perfect human" you noe?
Though i dun not cry it out, I tears.
Sorry la, brother.
I not understanding enough.
But i oso got gu qi de.
Just tell mi, and i will go.
DUN BLOODY LIE TO MI!
Wondered how it felt when your best friend lies to you?
Its like betrayal you noe?
I will understand de ma.
Sorry.
Todae damn tired, slept in school during lessons all the time.
Slept past school hours.
Went home feeling tired.
Tell you something, even if "He" shows the one tiny bit of brotherhood for me, i would die for him.
No regrets.
I dun mind nor care whether he is using mi or not.
I choose my own path.
Change topic: School now.
Thank god i never got retained.
Hahas.
But my class got 4 kena wor.
I heng - Happy-go lucky bax.
Haish.
Todae at IT club quite okay.
We stopmotion like never so busy before.
OT den reached home at 630.
Done the backdrop, almost finished painting.
LOL.
Deadline is 20+ November wor.
Head damn dizzy.
Dun talk le.
Maybe tomorrow bax.
Losing sight of those things we could see now, we drown in the sea of memories, but why?
Thursday, October 22, 2009;7:36 PM Y
Continuing on the epic adventures from before...
Went for IT meeting at 3, they were talking abt the Holidae camp stuffs.
Went home at 420, chiong shower again and rushed out for MT tuition.
Sad ting is, when i reached, they finishing on the papers.
Lucky teacher sae no count, den i no need pay.
Hahas...
Stayed there as they were playing mahjong.
LOL.
I self made pwned the first round.
Lady luck shining brightly.
But second round i lose den i go le.
So sad, but kinda fun.
Todae kinda disappointing.
Haish, rather not sae it.
Wun sleep so early tonight de, though kinda tired todae.
LOL.
Oh ya, not bad, todae got a good laugh, but pray hard tomorrow wun die.
Hahas.
I think thats about that for todae, anything i will edit the posts.
With the wings of engraving life, I'm longing for the next world in which i'll be reborn...
Good luck for tomorrow...
22 of October. Bright, dark and rainy.
I slept late last night at around 2am.
Head spinning like mad.
Woke up late at 645 this morning and was glad that my life was still going on.
I went for a quick cold shower and rushed to school.
Last night almost fall out with HT.
But tell ya, its kinda frustrating to have a brother you trust so much, doubting you on your loyalty.
I would rather give up BGR just for not ruining our relationship.
I dun really care whether or not, you still trust people.
Sorry if i wronged you, coz we are on the sms, n i catch no balls of your tone.
Almost reached my limitations and lose my cool. Yawns.
Hahas...
Lucky you still can tell mi that you wun give mi up for a gal you know 2 years.
I m still glad though, and i believe the trust is still there.
Now, what the heck happened todae?
The same old boring life which not ordinary humans can take, occurred in mi.
Went school feeling damn crappy and slept in class throughout those free English and POA periods.
Kinda worried about retaining, Miss Chala warned the class that there are 5 retains in my class.
Said that one is confirm case liao, the rest nothing to say.
But one thing i liked about Mr Su WeiLun, that guy seems more willing to fight for the retains, rather than Miss Chala.
No Comments though.
Hope I wouldn't be one of the 4 retains.
Would just jump down as the sunsets.
Believe mi when i say i would, that i really would.
Yawns...
Went to 883 for lunch with Phil.
GTG soon for IT meeting now at 3.
LOL. Phil called. CHi.
So then, later i will post another one.
Maybe a shorter one...
The marks of your tears and scars are beautiful, because they made you what you are today.
To, JE.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009;1:23 PM Y
Hey dudes out there.
Some kids requested for my revival of this dumb blog and i just did it.
Salutes to that idiot that said that i was lazy to update blogs.
Haish.
Spent 2 hrs looking for the skin and configuring and editing it.
There's so much things to edit.
I will update the blog weekly and if i got time, at the very least, to cure my boredom.
This few daes weren't that great.
Life's kinda boring coz even now, i m stil doing those stupid quizzes on facebook.
Though there is something called "Anime" which gives a bit of entertainment, time passed and the show would end.
Damn... I can't even bring back someone i cherished so much.
Damn useless. Haish.
Weather not godly, feel faint.
Let hope it rains.
The belief in life i found, were lost in just a matter of time.
Gave in to the darkness, is there still faith in relationships?
I found out that humans aren't that great after all, though kind by nature, they gives in to the selfishness and greed in them.
I oso found out that the "good" are not the good n "bad" are not that bad too.
Hard to understand huh.
Hahas.
"Just give up and accept it already!" "Never!"
Its human nature, the selfishness, to betray, backstab. I dun deny. But i wun accept it as it is.
The nightsky is drawn with a story connected by stars, an illusion your heart still yearns for.
P.S I m falling sick soon. WOOTz!!
