Friday, January 22, 2010;6:57 PM Y
22 January, Rained in the morning.
Plain life. (Don't bother explaining how its like)
And, hey you out there.
If you are looking at my blog, I wan you to noe something.
I'm not the pro-est of the freaking percussion.
If i am, I wouldn't accept another one to be my teacher.
I (OBVIOUSLY) accepts the fact that there are other ppls much pro-er.
I am not proud.
From young, I didn't like performing.
I hate the feeling of like as if you are free labourer or you are entertainment...and you get nothing.
If each of my every sentence you have to take it so seriously and be so rude to me.
Sorry, you don't understand me.
I didn't join CO for performing.
GOD, what makes you think that the moment you join a performing art, you HAVE TO perform.
Can't I join for learning and having fun?
That was my purpose from the start you know?
I juz happen to play a bit more averagely and next...was condemned to perform.
Okayy, I do not oppose to performing in SFY, thats a competition, my friend.
You do get awards for that if you do well.
But I do not really like performance for like, CNY? Concerts and stuffs that all you get was nothing except, maybe experience?
Coz, its the audience who gets the entertainment.
I do not care for what you called, the enjoyment in performing.
But i do care for the enjoyment of playing with you guys.
Screw off if you don't understand.
Okay, now screw off the CO things.
Now, get this clear ppls.
I am what i am.
I've got a life, get it?
If you can't accept who i am, then, don't bother being my friend.
You cannot condemn me as a sinner when i mixes with sinners, coz, i didn't sin.
Believe it or not, I m not a joker.
My personality from the start was never a joker.
I joke when my friends around I feel that they are feeling plain or bored, or they emo.
Just wanted a change of atmosphere.
Now, they say i joker.
If i don't joke, they say i emo, or, chances are, they will emo again and i have to change the atmosphere to more lively.
If i joke, they condemn mi to being a joker.
And, tell you guys something.
When ppls say LOL, it doesn't means that they have to laugh.
In fact, i believe most dun laugh when they say LOL!
I dun, for your info.
Sometimes, to make them feel comfortable when talking to me, i gotta say "Hahas..."
Even when i'm down and no one, noes abt it.
I dunnoe how, thats all i can say.
Post ends at here.
Sorry if you feel negative or something after reading.
Didn't want you to think that i'm a bad guy. Hahas...
Coz, i'm not, and, do not try to be rude or condemn mi, saying that I'm like this de.
Coz, I'm not.
I just gotta sae what I feel like saying.
Screw off if you can't accept me.
I didn't ask you to be my friend.
You know who you are.
Thats all I wanna say.
Bye.
Cast magic on me who had forgotten even how to laugh,
You who changed everything with a single smile are my Fairy.
